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I can never think of titles for my blogs. I've been watching a lot of youtube lately at night, cause I've had nothing better to do. I love seeing what other people buy and how other people do things. It's like an accepted way to creep on someone if you think about it. I really wish I was more fashionable! Daniel and I went to the mall today, but we actually went shopping. His mom got me a $50 gift card for easter! woot woot! So we first went to charlotte russe and spent a good 30-45 minutes there. He actually helped me pick stuff out which I really appreciated. He actually has a decent sense of fashion. I'm really glad because I get so overwhelmed. He will like pick something up that I completely walked past and it will be decent. I however though, didn't have much luck at charlotte russe. Daniel helped me pick out like 5 shirts. I tried them all on, but I just really wasn't in love with any of them. So feeling pretty sad, we left and went to papaya. I actually had much better luck there. I only bought 4 things, but I felt they were worth it since all I ever buy are fitted t-shirts and plain tank tops. I bought a black blazer which I saw a korean girl carrying around. I always love their fashion and have been tossing around the idea of a blazer, so I found it. It has like striped sleeved on the inside, but the outside is black or navy. I think black though, I always have a hard time telling. Then I saw this light pink somewhat flowy, I guess tank top. It's pretty fancy looking and I can wear it under the blazer. I then bought this black embellished/beaded tank top that's pretty fancy as well. Then I got this sort of button up tank top with birds on it, but still not plain. All that came out to $67. Gasp! That's a lot of money for me, but I felt it was worth it to buy fancier/classier clothes. I need to just buy like one shirt every time I go to the mall, so that way it's not as expensive. I need to stop spending my money on stupid shit like snacks at gas stations and buy clothes.

I know I'll be happier if I feel good in what I'm wearing, and feel that I look good. I really would've liked to ombre my hair tonight. I would've had the perfect opportunity. I wanted to buy the bleach yesterday when we went to get crickets for Daniel's chameleon, but he forgot his wallet at home and wanted to hurry and get home. Then today we went out, but I forgot about it until after we already passed Sally's. So maybe I'll go tomorrow and do it before work. I know it's gonna fry the shit out of my hair, but I just want to do it. I'll just have to deep condition even more often. I feel like it should actually get pretty light though. I'm only going to use 30 vol developer because my hair is already really damaged and I already have some from when I did my hair red. My roots are finally starting to come in! I'd say probably 3/4 of an inch. Some of it may be regrowth from when I dyed my hair red, then dyed it ash blonde and the blonde rinsed out. I don't know if it's because of my hair or what (probably), but that ion brilliance hair dye from sally's rinses out of my hair sooo easily. Like the ash blonde was gone out of my hair within like the first week or two. I don't even know how that's possible! Oh well, I don't even need to worry about that since I'm not dying it anymore except for the ombre, which isn't technically dye.

It really sucks sometimes when you kind of have bad genes. I mean I know I could definitely be a lot worse off. I just hate how hairy I am! It really drives my crazy. Like I probably spend at least 2-3 hours thinking about it a day. I'm sure most people probably don't even notice it, but I can't look anywhere on my body without seeing it. It makes me really sad. I guess that's what I get for being Italian.